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(yes, i just watched the apartment. great film!)
trying to keep positive this year — like chill, man, the year has just begun — but, inevitably, i'm still afraid of what's to come. i mean, i'm a legal adult now!
and last month, even though most of it went absolutely great, i messed up again and again and my partner's patience ran out, to put it very lightly.
he left me. and although she may be thinking that didn't affect me that much, it did, of course it did. i wish i'd done so many things differently.
but i don't want to suffer anymore. i just want to have a good year. and most of all, i want her to have the best year she ever had.
trying to keep positive this year — like chill, man, the year has just begun — but, inevitably, i'm still afraid of what's to come. i mean, i'm a legal adult now!
and last month, even though most of it went absolutely great, i messed up again and again and my partner's patience ran out, to put it very lightly.
he left me. and although she may be thinking that didn't affect me that much, it did, of course it did. i wish i'd done so many things differently.
but i don't want to suffer anymore. i just want to have a good year. and most of all, i want her to have the best year she ever had.
